Thursday, July 30, 2009

I just had to share this song. It's so so so so nice (in my opinion). It's Back at One, by Brian McKnight! But it just so happens that the original recording version is not on YouTube >< But i think this one is not bad!

Monday, July 27, 2009

National Day's just around the corner and it's the time of the year when I can finally hear songs like "Home"! Honestly, I sing this song in the toilet when I bathe quite often ><

But I just realised 6th of Aug is celebration for National Day, and 7th-10th is a super long weekend with 2 holidays. Thurs-Mon. Wow! But it's time to rest and catch up on work before Promos starts knocking on our doors...

And there'll be a holiday on 31st Aug! This time for Teachers' Day. So another long weekend! :D

Okay, I shall not be fascinated about holidays and instead go do my HW before sleeping. Life's okay today. ><

Sunday, July 26, 2009

My feelings are mixed now. It has been an eventful day but I feel tired. I enjoyed the company of people at the expense of others. I spent time doing things at the expense of something essential.

Haiz. It's just tiring, but it doesn't matter la. When you think about it, what Mr Koh said is really qutie true. Maybe we should just try to treasure what we have, and accept what we don't have. It's just so sad, like how the class he taught only started to bond when one student passed away just so suddenly on a night. How would you feel if you received the notes of the person who was just joking with you the day before, but realised that he's no longer with you anymore? It's so scary, but it just might happen...

Life is fragile eh?

But I've also heard how my dad lost his best friend, someone he was like brothers with since childhood till something they did together failed terribly. Then it just ended. Perhaps friendships are fragile too. =(

Saturday, July 25, 2009

Maybe today deserves another post:

"i realised something important - that true friends don't need to depend on reading each others' blogs, or talking over msn frequently, or tagging on one anothers' tagboards all the time. real friends are people. they are people who.. may not talk to you every single day of your life, but when they really do go out to have a meal with you every once in a while, or maybe just when you happen to sit down with them for a little while, they are people who actually talk to you, and just go on and on and on about everything that happened in the past few days when you guys weren't talking."

I wonder how many true friends I really have. Hmmm.

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Oh no. I'm getting lazier to not post any things on this blog. And the pace of school is starting to pick up already! Busy days coming man...

OGL interviews are ongoing, and I really hope some people make it to be OGLs! It'll be great to see the new J1s have a great time during Orientation! :D

Go O'comm and O'team!

Sunday, July 19, 2009

Not in the mood for posts, so no posts these few days!

But today's uni fair was -.-. Crowded, little info, not that many Unis. Hmmm, i really hope i can get into a great uni! Good schools are like good classes, and really make a big difference in a person. The impact 2E, 4B and SO6G have on me are so great that if I didn't go to these classes, I really dunno how I will be today. haha...

Hope everybody will not fall sick anymore. Hmmm...

Friday, July 17, 2009

So many people have been down with flu and fever these few days! I really hope I'm not the cause. If I was, I'm really sorry! Do take care of yourselves yea?

i realised i lied. i'm sorry...

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Haiz, got back all my papers today alr. I really did very badly =( But i'll work hard! There's no room for slip-ups the next time round. Must learn from Patrick, Jerald and Lumpy. JS, you're quite good also la, but i think this time they pro-er, haha!

Okay, so I actually started falling sick yesterday, got some cough. But it got worse today, and I started having fever. But I still came to school, because this morning I was fine. I really hope it's not H1N1 though, because today I met Yvonne and she's pregnant and I really don't want to spread to her or any of you to make you guys fall sick! But anyway, I'm running a temperature of 39.2 degrees celsius now, quite high eh? I have an MC for tmr and thurs too. Thus i'm gonna go slp soon!

But before that, I must share my super duper weird exp with all of you. I went to see a doctor at around 8.20pm today and the clinic was within walking distance, yea so while walking back, I went past some low-rise HDB flats. You know those kind where there are flats on the ground floor, albeit elevated a bit? Yea... So while I was walking past 1 unit, I heard moaning. Yea, really like MOANING (like "uh... er..." yea, sth like that.) by a girl and a boy. I could hear that their voices are quite young and they were talking stuff like 'in the butt' and laughing a while. Since the unit is elevated, even though the windows are open, I couldn't see anything (door is closed), so I coughed a bit. Suddenly, it was quiet. THEN, this boy (maybe P6, or around Sec 1-2) went to the windows and looked out. He saw me and he was not wearing any shirt. Then I walked away lor, what else can I do? ><

Yea, i guess you guys can infer from my description on what could've happened. I dunno, it's a bit weird and bad? hmmm. Nvm, I shall go rest. Hopefully I can go band concert tmr night! If not, I'm really sorry... =(

Monday, July 13, 2009

School week has begun again. Got back 2 results today, was lucky for one (though the result was still horrid), and totally flunked the other. I don't understand why my life is so full of flunking - work, results, life, friends.

Perhaps it's an adjustment period. And yes, I'll make my way out of it - to be ready once again for everything that's coming my way.



I read someone's sms this morning. But I didn't know how to reply, so I didn't.

Sunday, July 12, 2009

"To love is to risk not being loved in return. To hope is to risk pain. To try is to risk failure, but risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing."

And i'm inspired by this quote. Really. The meaning of it strucked me in its full totality when I read "because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing."

I can't imagine if I grew up without daring to dream, without wanting to be somebody, without wanting to come to this school because I was scared of failing. Indeed, my desire to come to RI was the most correct thing I dreamt about.

I was not outstanding in my pri sch, I was not a prefect, I was not the top in class, I was not good in sports (i sucked, and still suck, at soccer), I was "considered" good in math because i was in this "math wizard club" (we actually performed a short skit to the school before! haha, it's really funny coming to think about it) but i never had excellent results and i only managed a cert of participation at SMO (which is totally embarassing ><). But I always wanted to come to RI, because my dad told me many great people came from this school, and because it was Big and Famous (i was naive, but it's still true to quite a large extent eh?).

Hmmm, I don't really know how it happened, but I was quite lucky and I got a good enough score to come to this school in p6. Well, if I didn't make it then, I really dunno how my life would turn out today, because I wouldn't have learnt a lot from ppl like Ms Chang, influenced by my seniors, met my friends and made these choices.

Yet sometimes, I regret coming to this school, because it's tough. I mean it, life in RI is indeed tough. School work is tough. Doing well in CCA is tough. Making close friends is tough. Even being yourself is tough. It's because Raffles is such a fantastic place, not being the best means that you've failed. Being too close to somebody makes you so vulnerable to pain when he deals that blow to you. It's so true and so sad.

Failure is so immense; it tears you apart and crushes you into small pieces. But at the end of the day, you'll still stand up once again no matter what. Whether you've become stronger is another issue, but yes, you'll survive. At least I have, albeit feeling more drained each time. Sad to say, this is something which I've tasted so many times this year.

Speaking of failures, i really do not know how to face my father tomorrow. How do i tell him the truth? What will he do? What should i do? What will happen? >< Haiz, what will come has to come. I guess it's something I've to deal with alone painfully. Nonetheless, I'm still standing and tomorrow will come - and it'll be a better day.

ANYWAY, I realised i've been updating my blog everyday. That's not such a great thing, because it means i've been spending a lot of time by the com =( But i'm really heartened to see that there's at least a person who reads my blog, because there's a new tag! :D

Also, I'm glad our group is shifting to higher gears for PW because I really want to get that 'A'! Anyway, who doesn't? ><

Saturday, July 11, 2009

"Dream as if you'll live forever, live as if you'll die today."

I know i've not being doing this, but honestly, how many people in the world actually dream and live this way? I wonder, I really do. If we do not dream, there's nothing much to see in tomorrow isn't it? If we do not live life as if there's no tmr (though I do not know how...), it means we've not really been living, have we?

I'm so afraid of losing people in my life, people who're so precious to me. Everytime I imagine someone leaving me, I can't help but start to feel bitter, feel a dread, a sense of helplessness. But what can i do? Sometimes really life is just weird and such a vacuum cleaner. Perhaps one day, you're still laughing and talking to a person, but the next day he would have left you and this world behind. Perhaps one day, you're still close or comfortable with that person, but the next day you just feel the break in connection, the lost of touch, the disappearance of that something special. It's so sad, so painful. Haiz...

Btw, after walking thru Chinatown for half a day, and going to Bugis for a few hours, before finally returning to Woodlands for dinner really drains a person. Shit, I just realised it's 8.46pm - no time... Haiz, I'm quite tired and dying to talk to someone, but I'm determined to not go on MSN. ><

Yes, I will survive.



p.s. Barry, I hope you're feeling okay! I know you don't read my blog, but still, yea. =)

p.p.s. All the best to R(JC)SB for their concert!

p.p.p.s. Hope National Day will work out fine this year, but I don't like the theme song. =(

p.p.p.p.s Some people just don't update their blogs! Zzz.

Friday, July 10, 2009

Okay maybe I'll use my blog afterall. I've managed to not use MSN, but I'm still reading blogs, using quite a lot of FB - reading ppl's notes, observing trends (maybe i'm oversensitive).

But anyway, I just feel tired right after the first week when sch finally properly reopens. It's so weird, having to start lessons again but finally, I'm spending more time with my class though of course at the expense with some others. Hmmm, the feeling of being disconnected from people when I'm at home is quite noticeable when I'm trying to not use MSN. Perhaps I just have to get used to it.

Well, enough of ranting. So to end off this short post, I just wanna say that I'm pissed/sad/displeased/angry/sian with someone, something(s) and my tooth. I dunno whether it's time to let go or move on, but I just feel indignant. Zzz.

Life's unfair. That's why ________________.

Thursday, July 9, 2009

I'm taking a break. Taking a break from MSN, and probably this blog too - yea, this is a hiatus. I think complacency is really an evil, and I should never succumb to it again. No more dota, no more MSN, less Facebook till I get what I should and need to do right. Since people can survive without this "life", why can't I?

Speaking of stuff in school, H1N1 has really disrupted a lot of stuff and many of us are pissed/sad about it. But well, here's the rationale that a teacher gave, and I think it's to a certain extent reasonable, maybe you would like to read it:

"Some of you obviously feel that the measures are rather extreme and perhaps even unnecessary since stopping you from having meetings and events will not stop the spread of the virus. With new cases or suspected cases coming up every day, no one is naïve enough to think that we can stamp out the flu in RJ by suspending all activities. What the college is trying to do, however, is to minimise contact between people of different classes so that if necessary, we can quarantine small groups of people rather than shut down the whole school or even an entire level. This is especially crucial because of the J2 cohort, since at this point of the year, the J2s really only have about 6 to 7 weeks of formal lessons left before their prelims and A levels and shutting down even one J2 class for one week will be a major disruption to their academic schedule - ie the longer we can delay or slow down the spread of H1N1 the better."

To end off, I've been reading quite a few people's blog today and I must say quite a few people are feeling down, for whatever reasons... But you guys, hang in there! We'll pull through everything together. I have more reasons to be sad, but I'm bucking up and still breathing. =)

So here's buh-bye for a long time, and till then, all the best everybody! :D

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

I'm feeling so drained... This is really bad because I was so sleepy during GP and Chem lecture today! Hmmm, I read js and Pat's blogs today and both of them had so much to say, so much to reflect about stuff, and I must say I have too, just that i'm too lazy ><

Today, I got back my Math CTs and I must say I'm really grateful even though I didn't meet my own expectations... honestly la, it was not a tough paper so i'm really scared of what I might get for other subjs and for future tests.

Hmmm, H1N1 is really screwing up everything in Council, schedules and plans and events and even IHC! I really hope there's a H1N1 vaccine or cure soon...

Mm, I'm gonna go do rest and do PW later! Sorry for poor post haha.

Monday, July 6, 2009

The worst part about playing games with other people, is to be afk and not being able to help it. I know people might see it as an excuse, but I can only say sorry.

Maybe it's time for a DotA hiatus. No, maybe not maybe, i think i should just do it.

Saturday, July 4, 2009

*Common Tests are over? It seemed like forever, and the toughest (close to last year's EOY in terms of stress and stuff) test period I've undergone. Glad that it's over, and i'm wishing and hoping for the best.

Hmm but after the Common Tests, I was really glad to spend time with 2 of my closest group of friends... Thursday's stayover with my 4B friends was nothing spectacular, but I really enjoyed just being there with all of you, it just makes me happy (really.) and... feel less lonely. Nothing else needs to be said la, it's something that is part of my life alr. =)

Next up was time with past RE group! Aiya, too bad Max can't make it, but it was really a long long time since we've done anything together - playing Wimbledon on Xbox360 (though we didn't do a proper rematch ><) and Fifa 09, screaming and shouting when goals were scored (or not lol). After that, I played tennis! Haha, I was epic fail and damn lousy, but I guess it's always a good start for anything. I promise I'm gonna try to improve my tennis - but nonetheless, i still like badminton and Whiff-Whaff more!!! Too bad, I borrowed ZY's bats but didn't ask for balls -.- Stupidest thing done for the day. Then lastly was a meeting and dinner with SHINE Prog Comm. It was an okay mtg, but I really dunno why I'm always like tongue-tied or I tend to stutter a bit when I talk at SHINE mtgs. Weird, maybe it's because I slept really late the prev night. >< But anyway, going to the dinner! Haha, the HK Cafe food was really quite nice - Milk Tea and Chicken Baked Rice! But one thing i'm guilty of, is that I didn't pay for the meal because Serene (our Prog Comm Head) treated all of us... Actually, I was a bit scared of her LAST TIME because i didn't do much work ><. But anyway, I had the opportunity to talk to her more on the MRT trip back! The conversation which we had was really enjoyable because her life is like so colourful and interesting, from being a Bball capt in Sec Sch, doing Scouts stuff (haha, *coughkennethcough*), dancing salsa, being a flight-attendant to working with SHINE and having a nice husband + a super handsome dog called Comet! I really respect her for who she is, and hope to talk and learn more from her! :D

Okay la, it's super late already. I'm gonna go slp! Hope everybody will stay happy and believe in the magical things in life...


*edited! some sections were cut off, in the middle. Dunno what happened though...

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