Wednesday, October 10, 2007
I felt like a part of me is over. This cold and empty feeling that sucks you dry. This very urge that makes you wanna cry. -Sobs- Anxiety. Fear. Confused. When I saw the clock ticking slowly to 1.03pm, I was feeling a whole bottle of ice cold sake bursting within me, burning me with that fiery alcohol while freezing me to the core. I knew it was true. It was all over.
Eh wait. Why am I sounding so emo? HEY!! I should be damn happy now, because the EOYs are FINALLY OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =) I know I sound like a childish kid who just got his birthday present, but I really felt a sense of relief and gratitude when I heard the teacher said "You can go." Though I didn't do that well for the bio paper, I just felt sort of accomplished. =) Hmmm...
But anyway, I shall not blog on how I did for my exams, but talk about something more interesting: the (tons of) weaknesses that I have, but I shall first name 3 today.
1. I'm ugly. Everything I look at the mirror, I feel depressed. I go like "HAIZZZ... Why can't I at least look a bit better?" The fact that even my relatives always praise my better looking cousin in front of me, makes me feel sour. But what to do? This is life.
2. I'm not smart. Watching how other people always do homework, revision and tests better, faster and more efficiently than me, I feel suaned. This feeling that makes me go, "why am I in this class??" Even in the case of Japanese. I can start mugging like 1 month before, but I always get like 5-10 marks lower than Zhao Kai who mugs like 1 day before. I'm not being jealous or what, but seriously, haiz... Why am I not smarter?
3. I'm always very slow. Seriously, I'm trying to change this. Every time I realise that people are always way in front of me in terms of time management, and I always realise that I take the longest to leave the class during recess. (Probably that's why people always pang seh me. sob.) Please remind me to be faster next time k?
There are so many more that I can think of now. But I shall not post them now.. So, to those who have just finished your exams, how are you gonna spend your time? I think I shall take a nice long rest. (and to those who didn't call me to go to you-know-where: -POKE!-)
Yup, cya then...
KC...
5:29 PM
